Self-assessment

I can't believe the blogging is over... it seems like just yesterday I was learning how to use this site and now I'm writing my last one.
I have never wrote poetry before but in this blog I wrote a couple of poems that just flowed and I was amazed. I never would have thought that I would be able to write poems like that and I did. Experimenting with pictures was truly interesting, I showed everyone pictures that I don't think I would ever have the guts to show people if it wasn't for blogging. I was able to step aside from my usually goofy laughing self and show my ranting bitchy self and wasn't ashamed about it. loll you know i love ranting! I loved the fact that I was able to pour my heart out in these blogs. Sometimes though I would just stare at a computer screen for hrs and think what the fuck am I going to write. I tired my best with being freaky and stepping out of the box, I hope you can all see that.

Obama - - - YES WE CAN

"CHANGE HAS COME TO AMERICA" words from the president himself =]

i am truly excited and happy that Barak Obama will be our country's new president. the speech he gave was so touching that i was crying.
Finally a democratic back in the white house. let history be made. my vote counted!!It's sad to hear that is grandma is not here to see he win but shes watching over him. if you think about i believe she knew he was gonna win. The fact that she passed away a day before election day made me believe she knew her time was done and that she is now going to inspire him in whether he does. I can not wait to see what he is going to do for this country! i know he can make a difference.

As far McCain's speech was prefect it was one of his best speeches ever. he couldn't have said anything better. He was just such a good sport had only but nice things to say.

"YES WE CAN"

the creativity retreat

i honestly did not know what to expect on Saturday but let me tell you it was awesome! i had alot of fun with everyone. even though we were lost for 2hrs thanks to mike lol it was great. the weather was not as bad as i thought sunday it was chilly but saturday was beautiful. the food btw wass delicious. The little workshops we had to do were nice and relax. The pictures i took were beautiful. making smores were tons of fun we could not stop laughing =]. i used to hate the nature and found it extremely boring but after saturday i see nature in a different light. i can cherish it more now.

anotherr rant

fuck fuck fuck motherfucker. im in such a bad mood.
I had to go to the doctors today and get three fucking shots in my arm and it hurts like a bitch.
then danny's ex-gf keeps running her fucking mouth and i really wanna just punch her across her ugly looking face. with her fucking big bug eyes and no lips mouth. if she wasn't fucking three hundred pounds i would but she'd prob sit on me. i hate to talk like this but i had enough of her, she will not leave me alone and i just wanna move on, im seriously over her shit. like she neeeds to grow up. we're 18 now, worry about writing papers then what i'm doing because honestly I DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT YOU SO STOP WORRYING ABOUT WHAT IM DOING IN MY LIFE!!
then on top of that i got big nosed f. trying start trouble with my friends so he's other one. he should worry more on graduating high school then fucking trying to start trouble. he should really go to school he would then maybe have a brain.
i seriously hate people. i got to stop caring what people say.

on a happier note...I VOTED TODAY...thankk you very much!

they need you, please help them. they need you right now more then ever.

i think about you everyday, i miss you. it seems like just yesterday i was hearing stories
about you. i hope your ok up there, better yet i know you are. i keep getting stronger as
the days pass. thank you for being there for me. I'll never forget about you, ill remember you and keep you in my heart forever.

<3

it was hard at first.
i didn't know how to feel.
One minute i missed you and then the next minute i didn't even want to see you.
you are so nice and you treat me different.
no one has ever treated me this way.
i thought i was a bad person but now i've realized i was just confused.
this was all new to me.
i'm sorry i had my doubts, you make me happy more then upset.
even though we are miles away, we just keep on getting stronger.

Retreat

Trip to the city/brooklyn

I just uploaded tons of pics and finally the ones from the trip to Brooklyn we took a lil while ago. I had a great time that day. It was fun. The museum was interesting, I enjoyed the exhibit of Gilbert and George. Walking over the Brooklyn was soo fun with the cyclists ahahah they were getting so annoyed if you were in their lane, they seriously need to relax cuz they almost ran three ppl over haha. Going to the seaport was fun, i love Nathans lol Overall it was the best trip so farrrr!!!

Inner Self

I always laugh and smile but I do bitch and cry at times.
The times when I bitch I can't help it just flows out
and it's hard to control.The reason it flows is usually
when i hold stuff inside for too long that I just explode.
It's as if I do a 180 and turn into this psycho bitch.
I don't realize how psycho I sound until after I've said
everything.
I'm also a extremely emotional person, and sometimes cry
over anything and everything. I've cried about food, about
not getting a phone call from someone, cried at t.v shows
that weren't even sad, at comedy movies, just about anything.
Any little thing that is a bit sad, I totally take it and
continue to think about worst things. For example, I once
didn't get a phone call from someone and I got upset at
first thinking what the heck..well 2 minutes later I just
started crying and crying thinking omg he doesn't like me
anymore, what if he's talking to some other girl, I'm
so stupid I feel for it again and the next day I getting
a text message from him explaining how it was just a bad night
and he would make it up to me.

Coldplay

Yes I love JT, Madonna, Britney spears and their pop genre but i listen to everything so I also love bands such as All time low, Paramore, gym class heroes, The spill canvas and my all time favorite Coldplay.
I've been listening to them for about 2 years now. I became a fan when i heard their Grammy winning song "Clocks." Chris Martin doesn't sing the typical heartbreak or lovey dovey songs his lyrics have more meaning to them. Some of his songs even tell stories. What makes Coldplay so different from the other alternative rock bands is that they use different type of instruments and sounds; they used violins, different strings from the guitar.
One of their albums called A Rush of Blood to the Head won the Grammy Award for the Best Alternative Music Album at the 2003 Grammy's. And as I said before At the 2004 Grammy's, Coldplay won the record of the year for "Clocks."
Whenever I’m having a bad day and want to listen to some music, I immediately turn to Coldplay. I swear I feel like a totally different person, all my current thoughts just disappear and just focus on Chris martin's voice and the beat of the song. Coldplay has helped get through some hard times especially over that infamous boy I've been ranting about.

original photo

2nd draft of I'm OK

All thanks to aisha =]

I thought I'd never get over you
I thought I'd never be the same
without you but you know what
I'm OK
You use to win me over with your words
You always knew exactly what to say
but guess what…
I'm OK
You never knew what you wanted
You always had to think
Was I really good for you anyway?
It doesn’t matter
I'm OK
You had your little fun with me
but I'm not your toy
I’m better then that
I’m worth more
I'm OK
You think you could get whatever you want
but honey remember
you never truly got me
I'm OK
That's why you held on so long
You tired to contain me
I'm OK
but now I'm letting go of you for good
I'm Free
I'm OK

oldd pics

I went through some old pics and heres what I found

random thoughtss

I can't think lately. my mind has been all over the place and I don't know why.

I feel light headed, I feel like I'm under water. God I'm so indecisive.

I'm getting sick..AGAIN. Stuipd cold weather.

Long weekend ahead. I have a sweet 16 saturday oh yeah partying with sixteen year olds.

I'm spinning. My eye hurts. What is wrong with me??

I'm not tired tonight. That's a first, I'm always tired.

Halloween is coming up!

It's 10:43 and everyone in my house is sleeping. It's too quiet.

Thinking about lifeeee

After watching some T.V. tonight, some things came to mind for me to think about..
I was watching One Tree Hill tonight and I noticed how every character has something that they do which they truly enjoy. Brooke loves clothing so she spends time making clothes, Peyton loves music and now shes a music producer, Nathan loves basketball and now hes going to begin playing again and Haley, she began singing again. Also Lucas he enjoys writing and he just finished his second book. When the heck I am going to find out what I enjoy and actually be good at it?? I love music but let's be realistic, I can't sing, ok I can dance but that's not going anywhere, I can't write music, I can't even play a instrument so where is this going???? I'm good at certain things but there not going to take me anywhere in life..
Another was Love. I am a true believer in love and that everyone has that one soul mate who they are destined to be with. But I'm kinda scared I will never find that someone because I'm terrible with relationships and I'm always so picky, I can't help it. Trust me, Omg I know I'm farr farr away from perfect but I think I deserve someone I have my heart set on. Everytime a descent guy comes along, I always find some excuse not to go out with them. Yes I am dating someone but lets be honest he's in boston and I'm in new york..this is prob not gonna get anywhere near to serious, So when will I find that perfect match and will I know before it's too late??

I hate thinking like this, I never use too. I use to be that care free type person but now lately I've been paranoid on everything. I wish I was a kidd again and all I had to worry about it nap time and going to the bathroom. I wish we never had to grow up because this sucks.

A Time of being free

The sky is blue
The sun is out
The windows are down
My hair blowing with the wind
The Ray-Bans are on
Music blasting
The road is clear
We can't stop laughing
Finally a road trip
LAS VEGAS BABY!
A week of no school
A week of no work
A week of no mama falcs
Parties til the A.M.
Sleeping til the Noon
I wonder how nice the hotel is..
Ahhh casino
Feeling Lucky
Not a care in the world
One more exit
Are we there yet?
I gotta pee
I'm thirsty
Wait but I gotta pee
Wow that guy was hot
OMG we're here???
Oh god did i forget something
Who cares
Let's get readyyy too parrttayyyyy

Inner Child =]

my teddy JT and I <3

I had a huge fight with my two best guy friends yesterday. Yup not One but both. Danny has been my friend since I was 13 and we have this love-hate relationship. We're always disagreeing on something and we're always fighting but we do love each other. He's the only one who I can ask a serious life question and know hes not going to tell me what I want to hear. Which I really do hate sometimes but I beginning to realize it does help. Anyway we had this fight over some chick that hes been fucking. Ugh at first I disliked her because she just showed up out of no where and only 2 weeks of knowing Danny has sex with him but then I started to like her. She was really upfront about her sleeping with Danny and I thought wow shes not that bad. I mean what girl has the balls to go tell their sex partners best friend that yes I am having sex with your best friend. But now I dislike her again. Now shes thinks their going out which last time I checked your not and the other day she got mad at Danny for inviting me to go to the mall with them. what the fuck did i do?? I'm waiting a little to see what happens. Well Danny still went to the mall after he said oh dont worry about it I'm not going. ARE YOU SERIOUS??? Who are you going to run to when this chick moves on to the next thing huh? So at the moment we are not speaking. As for my other best friend Dennis hes mad at me. Now Dennis is like the big brother I never had, he lives right around the corner and we've been best friends since I was 3 we go wayyy back. Well I found out that he's been selling drugs, he won't admit it but I have a feeling its true. I dont want to believe it but I've been hearing from different people and lately he's been hanging out with the wrong crew. So I brought it up and he freaked out. I told him that I was sick of people influencing him and how he should grow a pair and be himself. Well he said you don't understand blah blah blah. He's gonna get hurt and I'm extremly scared I keep telling him this isn't a joke but he swears hes like fuckin superman and nothing can happened to him. He doesn't wannt to speak to me and it breaks my heart because I know I'm right and he does to but he just doesn't want to say it. Hes so hard headed even after he gets into trouble he still sits there and tells you no no I didnt. I'm gonna keep trying to stop him and hopefully I'll get through him before it's late.Wait no I take that back I'm not gonna let that happen Fuck him if he hates me for the rest of my life He's gonna stop I'll figure out a way

2nd Draft of.. I can finally breathe again

It's dark
I can't see a thing
I don't know what is going on
My hands start shaking
I can't think straight
My head is spinning
I feel out of place
All of sudden I begin gasping for air
These giant hands choking me
I tell it "release me, release me"
It ignores me
My fist start flying
"Why wont you stop?"
It doesn't answer
It just releases it's firm grip and slowly backs away
A familiar face appears
I see his blue eyes glaring at mine, filled with nothing
It's as if his feels no emotion
I become confused
"Hello? Are you ok?"
His tall lean body is now standing in front of me
He continues to glare, staring down towards me since he is so tall
"I hate you" I tell him
He takes a step back
"Why did I even bother with you?"
He backs away even further
"You never cared"
He continues to step back
"Well I never want to hear from you again"
He is now by what appears to be a door
"I'm done with you"
He vanishes and the darkness clears
Light shines towards me
I feel as if a huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders
My once broke hearts has been cured
and I can finally breathe again

Some more interesting pics..

After learning more about Andy Warhol, who I think is extremely talented, I was inspired to use some bright colors in my pictures..

My eyess look craziiii


"Wat r you talking about?"


Laughinggggg

Pics

A Time of Confusion

Whats going on?
This isn't you
No your not suppose to do this to me
Your suppose to be there for me
Are you ok?
I take that back, I don't care
Why are you doing this?
It hurts
It hurts alot
I don't understand
Your hurting me
Well your hurting yourself as well
Please stop
Atleast try to stop
It still hurts
Ok I do care
Can you get better now?
This isn't you
Your different and I don't like it
I'm mad at you
You say your trying but your not
I love you
I love you alot
Can you get better now?
What do you mean it isn't easy?
Of course it is
Your making an excuse
I' m mad at you again
If your sorry then why do you keep doing this?
Your really gonna try now?
Your gonna try to get better?
Thank you
I'm not mad anymore
I'm just trying to learn how to understand all this

I can finally breathe again

I begin gasping for air
It's dark
I tell him "release me, release me"
He doesn't listen
My fist start flying
"Why wont you stop?"
He doesn't answer
His blue eyes glaring at mine, filled with nothing
It's as if he feels no emotion
I become confused
"Hello? You there?"
He releases and slowly backs away
His tall lean body stands in front of me
He continues to glare, staring down towards me since he is so tall
"I hate you" I tell him
He takes a step back
"Why did I even bother with you?"
He backs away even further
"You never cared"
He continues to step back
"Well I never want to hear from you again"
He is now by what appears to be a door
"I'm done with you"
He vanishes...
The darkness clears
Light shines towards me
I can finally breathe again

Tina Fey

I adore Tina Fey. She is one hell of a woman. She's so intelligent and very passionate about her job. She was one of the writers on SNL and sadly left the show about 2 years ago. She went on to write the hit show "30 rock" Which has won a few Emmy's. Well for the past 2 weeks she has come back to SNL and has done two skits on Sarah Palin. She's extremely passionate about politics. I am voting for Barak Obama because I will not let some Alaskan hockey mom be my vice priesdent. I hate to say this but McCain is 72 and if God forbid anything happens to him Sarah will be the next in line and She is not ready. To be vice president to have to know what your talking about and she doesn't. She never makes any sense. In the interview with Katy Couric, she just went on and on about nothing and never answered a single question. At one point she tells Katy "I'll get back to you on that one." Does that sound like she's ready to be the Vice President of the United States. Even during the debate, let me just say I'll give her credit she held her own but she did have a few errors that stood out. Answering one of the questions she winked, yes I actually watched her wink. That just made me laugh, then when asked questions notice how she kept skipping the question and saying "I'm going to skip that question and go back to ...such and such..." That was really getting annoying, she even said "I'm not going to answer the way you would like me to.." Um that's the WHOLE point of the debate to answer in a professional matter just has every office members has. Another thing that really got on my nerves was the terms she was using like "Six pack Joe, turn to any soccer mom, Alaska this...well in Alaska that." We have more states besides Alaska Sarah.
Anyway She is not prepared to be Vice President and Ms. Tina Fey feels the same way. Look at the following videos. If you notice some of the lines are exactly what Palin said.

Can you tell which one is the real Sarah Palin????

Pictures

heyyy mikee youuu wanted freaky...soo here is freaky lolol

Belly of beast

Your a dick. How could you play with my emotions like that and not even care? I loved you, I wanted to be with you. So what if I was a little tipsy, I knew exactly what I was saying. You knew exactly what you were saying too. I remember that night, it was the worst night of my life. I made a fool out myself all for you. I couldn't keep it all inside of me, I just had to tell you . For 3 years you did this to me, back and forth, back and fourth. So I had to let you know how I felt, finally face to face. "I want to be with you Ryan." To this day the words keep replaying in my head, "I don't believe you Sam, this isn't you." It was me you asshole, it was always me, I just kept in for so long. "Sam I think about you all the time, it's just we're going to college and..uhh.. you know what well talk about this tomorrow when you get better." Again, I was fine you prick, a little buzz but I was even slurring my words, everyone knew i was fine but you just needed an excuse. You needed a way out you big baby. I called you. I fucking called you the next day to"talk" about this and you didn't even answer you pussy. Not even a text not even a fucking IM, after all the shit we went through, you couldn't even IM me??What? you couldn't handle it?? You can't deal with the fact maybe you felt the same way?? Now you think your a big shot because we don't talk anymore but you fucking idiot, you tried talking to me...TWICE! and you know what i did?? Not answer? how does it feel? you feel better now huh? think you can talk to me whenever the fuck YOU want but you know what?? I'm fucking sick of you, I'm done..I've moved on and find someone SOOOO much better. He actually treats me like a fucking person you piece of shit. Another thing baby, don't you remember KARMA HURTS LIKE A BITCH..well that chick you started dating after our lil incident, HA she dumped your sorry ass 2 weeks later and btw didn't remember me and her were friends!!! HAHAHAHAH the shit you told her about me, well she knows the real story and that's ONE oof the reasons why she broke up with you, the others are typical you, you dumbass.

something serious

I'm not a serious person.. It's not me.. I love to goof around but today.. Today I've decided to write a serious blog entry....
I watch Nancy Grace on occasion and what she has been talking about for the last month and a half is the Caylee Anthony case. If you haven't already heard the story about Caylee Anthony, well its a case of a missing 3 year old. I believe the mother killed her. I hate to even say this poor beautiful young girl is dead but its been 3 months and no sign of her. Don't get me wrong miracles happen and she could be out there but with the facts they have found i don't think shes alive. Her mother Casey Anthony is a pathological liar and i can not stand her. She has not told one thing that wasn't a lie. I do not believe a word out of that psycho's mouth. First of all she wasn't even the one to call about her missing daughter NOPE it was the grandma. Now that is pretty strange and when the Grandmother called she said "It smells like a dead body has been in there." What grandmother would say that and not have any suspicious to what happened. Let me first begin with the series of lies Casey has said for the past the months:
First she said the last time she seen Caylee was when she dropped her off to a babysitter named Zenaida Fernandez. Well when the cops took Casey to see where she dropped off Caylee, she didn't even "remember" where she left her. When she finally did, the place never existed AND the babysitter was completely made up. That is not even the half of it. It gets soo much better.
Second she was asked to prove the nanny and how she "called" her at one point to get in touch with her. Casey needed her phone to see the call history because at that time they couldn't get the phone records. Casey said she was working at Universal and that she had two phones. Since one was broken she was going to take the second one and replace it with the old phone's SIM card.
Well she hadn't worked at universal for years and the sick bitch wouldn't even admit it until she got to the door of universal with the cops and was like "Ok i don't work here." Also her phone's SIM card was magically lost and she couldn't find it.
Third After knowing the cops found out about Zenaida being made up.. She still insisted that she talked to Caylee over the phone on July 15. When the cops finally received the phone records... They were no calls that supported her claim.
Not only is the mother lieing but the psycho's parents are lying. It never ends.. Here are some lies from them:
First the grandma Cindy turned the dead body smell into an old pizza. Last time i checked they smell completely different.
Second Cindy washed evidence found in her daughter's car, Casey's pants, supposedly by accident. But then in one interview she complained that since the cops never came by for evidence Cindy was going to start disposing of things.
There is so much more but we would be here for days.
After the missing claim went out, Casey was found in a club a couple days after, drinking and having a good time with friends. How can you have fun with friends if your daughter just went missing????? I just don't get it. This woman really needs help and i can not wait until the bust her ass and she gets what she deserves. And as for as the parents, it disgust me that they keep denying the fact the daugther could have done something really bad to their granddaughter. They should wake up and start asking questions.
I'm keeping track if anything new is found and if there is.. I will be the first to let you know.

2nd Placeeeeee

Fire Extinguisher

sometimes I wear a hat
my grandma has a cat
omg! look over there
I don't know what to wear
Joe Jonas is HOT
Kevin Jonas is not
I like to play in the snow
yo momma is a hoe!
I'm tired
you're fired
strawberries covered in chocolate are good
don't ever go to the hood
my mom has a car
twinkle twinkle little star
I like the color pink
I like it when boys wink
I got a big butt
my dog's a mutt
outside there's a tree
I like a cup of tea
lets get naked
shake & bake it
the sun is out in the day
horses eat hay
gimme gimme more
campfires & a s'mores
my brothers name is Chris
wanna give me a kiss?
cows go mooooooo!
omg shoes!
I'm sitting in a chain
Smokey the bear
TV IS FUN!

Inspiration

My mom is the one who has inspired me the most...
She is just soo smart and has such a big heart and she help pass that on to me. Mama Falcs has been the one who has taught me the most important things in life. Such as my faith, how to be a leader, a hard worker and most importantly strong...
She is my hero and one of the main reasons is she had to overcome her biggest challenge alcohol.
It came honestly came out of the blue. She never had a problem with alcohol until i was about 13 and my grandma passed away. She just didnt noe how to cope with certain things and her way out was alcohol. She has been sober for 2 and half years now and im so proud of her. She has showed me how strong she truly is and how strong i can be. I didn't always feel that way at first..I didnt understand why she would do this to us but you know what..i didnt realize one thing that i have realized now.. She was also doing this to herself. She was hurting herself as well. I never really seen her in her moments since my daddy always took us out to a movie or somewhere to eat but when i did it was upsetting. It astonished me see how it can change someone, she would only be sleeping but i knew why. No one would have ever guessed my mom was an alcoholic only because she seemed like wonder mom, always at school picking us up, at the soccer games everywhere and that was another thing that amazed me. When she would have her little moments she ALWAYS found a way to be there for us for example she couldnt drive us to school she would call someone up to pick us up.. it just amazes me how my brother and I were always on her mind even when she wasn't sober. My mom wanted help, she wanted to get better all because of us and now shes learning for herself as well. She didnt always feel that way at first , she felt like she had to do this for my family but now that she has learned so much, she has seen she needed to get help for herself as well. I truly thank her for that. She still goes to some group meetings every once in awhile to show how well she is doing. Because of this she has shown me how alcohol or any type of drug isnt a game, it can have an affect on people and also she has shown me that i dont need to be afraid of alcohol just need to have control. My mom has helped me grow up, i have learned so many things from this experience. She has shown me how she really is Wonder Mom, she can get through anything and that is why i look up to her.

Change

You've changed
Not for the better, oh no for the worst.
What happened?
We we're so close.
All those inside jokes, late night phone calls, and school days.
Where'd it all go?
Was I to "boring" for you? or was it that I couldn't keep up with you?
I'm sorry I don't like the things you do now, better yet I'm glad I don't
I'm happy with who I am and I guess you weren't

Maybe thats why you changed...

My favorite thingsss

• Ipod- as you already know music is what i love and i just cant live without my ipod.. i take it everywhere
• Blackberry- i adore my blackberry it is truly amazing lolol i can do almost anything on it lolol i usually dont care if im punished but when my phone is taken away for something umm yeah i noe not to do that again
• Burt's Bees- BEST LIP BALM EVER CREATED!! its awesome it works wonders. I pick my lip sometimes ewwww i noe gross but i cant help it sometimes and Burt Bee's heals it up in a heartbeat!!
• Vera Wing Flower Princess- I love this perfume..im very picky when it comes to scents i love fresh somewhat floral scents and that is exactly what Vera Wang Flower Princess is.. i wear it all the time!
• Ferris Bueller's day off- not only is it one of my favorite movies but its made in the 80's!! i love this movie i watch it all the time i love the whole concept and music..its greatt!!
• Justin Timberlake Loveshow tour on DVD- BEST TOUR EVER!! no seriously it was the best concert i have EVER gone too and ive gone to alot lol I will never forget it!! the stage is set up SOO different you have to see it and the effects.. i cantt just please watch it sometime and you will noe what im talking about loloolol
• Chanel nail Polish Blue satin- One of my christmas presents was the chanel blue satin nail polishes..one of my favorite colors...ugh i love that nail polish and the bottle itself...im even wearin it right nowwww!
• Makeup- ok im not one of those girls who take 5 hrs to put on makeup..nope not me and i do not wear orange concealer lol sorry but i do enjoy wear SOME makeup..Eye shadows are soo much fun to play with..there's so many different colors so i love to try different ones every once in awhile
• Last but DEFF not least my RAY-BAN's- I got them as one of my graduation gifts.. they are just so vintage and not to mention from the 80's. I love when its sunny becuz i get to wear them =]

What is your favorite word?
love.

What is your least favorite word?
death.

What turns you on creatively, spiritually or emotionally?
God helps me see things in a different point of view.
Also my family, and friends i like to hear their opinion on certain things.

What turns you off?
Hypocrisy.

What is your favorite curse word?
"bitch" i like to say it in a different ways like bizznatch or biotch.

What sound or noise do you love?
the sound of the ocean. Every year we take a vacation to Virginia Beach and i just love to go on the balcony, read a book and listen to the waves.

What sound or noise do you hate?
i can NOT stand when people play with balloons and that sound it makes ughh it drives me crazy!!

What profession other than your own would you like to attempt?
a radio talk show host becuz my dream of being a MTV VJ is shattered since TRL is going to be gone soon. =/ i would love to be a music producer but im not sure at the moment. Basically anything to do with Music.

What profession would you not like to do?
doctor. i would not be able to deal with all the pressure.

If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the Pearly Gates?
so how about dem yankees?

I'm OK

I thought I'd never get over you

I thought I'd never be the same

without you but you know what

I'm OK

You use to win me over with your words

You always knew exactly what to say

I'm OK

You never knew what you wanted

You always had to think

I'm OK

You had your little fun with me

but I'm not your toy no more

I'm OK

You think you could get whatever you want

but honey remember

you never truly got me

I'm OK

That's why you held on so long

I'm Ok

but now I'm letting go of you for good

I'm Free

I'm OK

That day

We haven't spoken
since that day
The day you left me alone
not knowing wat to say

I should of kept
my big mouth shut
I knew you thought
I sounded like a nut

But I was speaking from my heart
you didnt even listen
you wanted to part

at first all I did was cry
but I dont know why

your not worth it
you never were

I know it took so long for me to see it
to see that bit..

That bit of you i was denying
I was just lying

lying to myself

To think you were the one
Well im done

Don't try and talk to me
because I will know excatly what to say

That dream of you and me together forever
vanished that day

That day I poured my heart to you
and all you did

was run away

Class at Jones Beach

some picturesss from the awesome claass at jones beach even though i was attacked by millons of bugsss lol it was still alot of funnn!!

Close Connectionss

i am extremely close to my parents which i sometimes feel is hard to find and i am soo grateful for that...

Mama Falcs...hmm where to beginnn..
welll lol She is truly wonder mother lol She has worried about me every since i was born. She always finds something to worry about lol When my dad goes to work shes the one who has to take care of my brother and I for school and such. She is the one who makes sure we ALWAYS and i mean ALWAYS looked presentable. I mean what mother makes the nurse put a pink headband on when you just were born so you looked pretty for your first picture from the hospital??lolol well Mama Falcs did..She made sure the nurse put a pink headband on me as soon as i was bornn lol My mom has taught me soo muchh. She taught me how to be a strong women and to be a leader not a follower. She has showed me how to be "faithful." My mom was the soccer mom,the softball mom,dancer momm and cheerleader mom. Every time i had a game or a recital or a cheer competition she was the mom who was always cheering the loudest, the one who made sure she got the parents together to thank the coaches, the one who when the coaches would need signs for support would go and ask my mom cuz they knew my mom cares sooo much for me and supports my every move. My mom can be over protective sometimes but you noe what i need her to be or i wouldnt be the person i am today I love my momm even though she can be really hard on me sometimes...she is my hero. She is the person i run to for helpppp.
I have and will always bee daddy's little girl...
My dad has been there for me every since dayyy oneee. Know matter how mad his boss would get mad at him for missing work for a school concertt or game, he would still show up. Even though work would be a lil tough to manage, he had alaways got his video camera together lol and find a way to come see me perform. He is the supporter of the family and til this day he has given me everything a girl can ask for. My father and I have always been close and that is becuz we are soo alike. Unlike my mom, my father and I tend to be more lay back at times where as Maama Falcs is freaking out about something so small. Which is understandable becuz she is the mom lolol we can just watch a movie, which btw he was the one who introduced me into all the classics, thanks to him i love action movies..anyway we can just watch a movie and relax, where as again lolol Mama Falcs begins to start thinking of what we have to do friday. My dad came for a very poor family since he lived with 6 other siblings and grew up in a not so good area in brooklyn. Instead of letting something like that affect you.. my dad made a new life, he moved on. I am so proud and have so much respect for him becuz of where is his today. Of course he gives me the lecture of i had to work for most of things you have today lol i still love him so much and its amazing how if i dont wanna talk to mom about something at first i can go to him and ask for advice. He knows Mom a lill better then i do lolol He is the one who inspires me to be independent and not need to rely on anyone